Lying on my big brown couch , alone , reminds me of the 'yesterdays' . The pasts seems so important to me . Flashes of memories began to come into my mind , both good and bad. I used to be so 'into' to my God. Pages of my textbooks will be filled with blocked lettered words like " i love jesus " , " Jesus rox " , " Jesus loves you and me " , etc .. but now, i don't seem to be 'into' it anymore.Malay boys from my class used to call me "Jesus girl" whenever i passed them , but not anymore. Different many types of christian music will run into my mind , over and over again , and the passion for going to church each week always comes whenever the weekends are about to arrive. I want to be called "Jesus girl" ! I want to be known as the girl who scibbles " i love jesus " on her textbooks .
Later , memories of my childhood rewinds in my mind.. remembering the time when i was a big "SUPERSTAR" in my family.. I would usually dance and sing in a " big crowd " when i was the age of 4. feeling real stupid about the time when I gave my form teacher this really expensive keychain from starcuise. The keychain has my whole family on it. hahaa. And i actually remembered that i told my form teacher that it was my Dad that asked me to give this to her. I guess i really do like that teacher.
